Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Ouch! That Hurt!

So, I cut myself on the ax. Not the literal ax, no, the delete button ax. It hurt when I deleted those 200 pages. I think I'm bleeding. 

But today, I started filling out the rest of my story. I have some scene ideas and one big background factor that is going to tie the whole thing together. My poor notebook, which was about full the first time I finished my manuscript, is now bursting at the seams and I am in need of a new one. 

So today I need to get a new notebook, finish my first scene (that's actually like two chapters in), write a review of Maeve Binchy's Heart and Soul, change a million dirty diapers and do some laundry. 

Update: This scene is giving me a headache. I've written 1,300 crappy words today and I know I won't end up keeping half of them, if any. I am trying to recapture the voice and mood of this story but its eluding me. No one said diving back in would be easy. But it should be.

2 comments:

Keli Gwyn said...

Hugs, Emily. I hope you won't be too hard on yourself or expect too much too soon. Cutting 200 pages of a beloved story is tough. You were brave.

But you lost something you loved, and it's OK to grieve a little. Try some chocolate, a bubble bath or even a therapeutic cry. Whatever works for you.

In a couple of days, as the new version of the story begins to take shape and the characters start chatting up a storm, I trust the thrill will return.

Emily said...

Keli ~
Thank you for your kinds words. I am getting back into the groove now and it feels good. Welcome back thrill. I could still use the chocolate bath ... I mean chocolate and bath though.