Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Ouch! That Hurt!

So, I cut myself on the ax. Not the literal ax, no, the delete button ax. It hurt when I deleted those 200 pages. I think I'm bleeding. 

But today, I started filling out the rest of my story. I have some scene ideas and one big background factor that is going to tie the whole thing together. My poor notebook, which was about full the first time I finished my manuscript, is now bursting at the seams and I am in need of a new one. 

So today I need to get a new notebook, finish my first scene (that's actually like two chapters in), write a review of Maeve Binchy's Heart and Soul, change a million dirty diapers and do some laundry. 

Update: This scene is giving me a headache. I've written 1,300 crappy words today and I know I won't end up keeping half of them, if any. I am trying to recapture the voice and mood of this story but its eluding me. No one said diving back in would be easy. But it should be.


Keli Gwyn said...

Hugs, Emily. I hope you won't be too hard on yourself or expect too much too soon. Cutting 200 pages of a beloved story is tough. You were brave.

But you lost something you loved, and it's OK to grieve a little. Try some chocolate, a bubble bath or even a therapeutic cry. Whatever works for you.

In a couple of days, as the new version of the story begins to take shape and the characters start chatting up a storm, I trust the thrill will return.

Emily said...

Keli ~
Thank you for your kinds words. I am getting back into the groove now and it feels good. Welcome back thrill. I could still use the chocolate bath ... I mean chocolate and bath though.